Wow what a wierd feeling I'm having today, we are headed off so Dawn can receive chemotherapy. The goal is not to cure the cancer (there is no cure), but rather to reduce the size of the tumors and inhibit the growth and spread of the cancer. The best you can hope for is not to be too sick, to be able to continue to function, and maybe even feel better after a week or so, kind of odd isn't it? I mean you pay about $5000 per week in order to suffer less, (maybe) and put poison in your body, tell me this is not messed up. Yeah here I go again, the farther down this road we go the more hopeless I see the world truly is. With starving people all over the world, and food being wasted in gross proportions in other areas we have no solution. With dictators, warlords, and politicians in this world who seek out of thier own sense of power to destroy, oppress, and control others we have no answer. With people strapping bombs to themselves in order to attain a higher standing in the demonic realm by killing the innocent, we have no solutions. In a world where drug Lords get rich by preying on the weaknesses of others, connecting them by whatever means to a dependency on something that offers no real solution, only numbness and the destruction of thier bodies, at all cost, yet we have no answer. In a world where the rich get richer and the poor get poorer simply because they can, we have no solution. In a world where it is no longer acceptable to believe in what is right and good, where standing up against these things is considered being judgemental, yet still there are no answers. In a land where it is illegal to pray and mandated that an unproveable theory be taught as truth, yet this truth has yet to provide any answers and no solutions. With trillions of dollars being spent worldwide on medical research each year there are still far more questions than answers.
There is in fact only one reality to these and so many more issues facing mankind, we do not have the answers, no matter how hard we try, how much money we spend, or how hard we try to convince ourselves and others, we as mankind are largely powerless, hopeless, and without answers.
In reality the only true answer for mankind is in the belief that we were created in the image of God, that He has a plan for us, and that this life truly is temperal, that there is a God that we can all place our hope in. After all, it is quite onvious isn't it that there is nothing in this world we can place our hope in!
you are so right brother, our hope does not lie at all in this world, but in our God who reigns over and above it all. I am so sorry, not that i have given up hope, which i have definitely not, but because you are all hurting, and i am powerless to help that, except of course to pray and think lovely and pure thoughts of you all. i have mixed emotions as dawn is probably getting chemo right now, i pray that the side effects are nil and that she will be feeling better soon, and you can bet i will be at the greatest celebration redding has ever seen, luv u brother.
ReplyDeleteAwwww...Dawn & Gene, as the battle rages on in the physical, I have a picture of Dawn in the spiritual peacefully laying back in a comfy recliner with Gene at her side holding her hand as many others gently stroke her hair and massage her hands and her feet. Others are standing shoulder to shoulder in a circle facing out...quietly singing praises to the King of kings...right arms reaching up with the Word in their hands...left arms holding and tightly locking together mighty shields of faith. It's awesome and fierce and at the same time peaceful and strengthening. Oh Lord...as you work your perfect healing in Dawn would you allow these chemo treatments to be in the physical what I see in the spiritual? Amen & Amen
ReplyDeleteSounds like a song; "Oh My God", by Jars of Clay.
ReplyDeleteI felt pain this morning just thinking of you both and knowing what it feels like to see your best friend on this earth suffer...