Been a long Time

Yes it has been more than just a little while since I last wrote, and while I do apologize I must say I just did not have it in me. For weeks now I have been trying to put pen to paper to no avail, unable to gather my thoughts for more than a millisecond, I simply stopped trying to think. Early Sunday morning past I found myself crying out to God "what is wrong with my mind?", and believe it or not He showed me! He showed me in a very strange vision that I had been deppressed and oppressed, not in the same way that I have been in the past, yet none the less both indeed. You see a spirit of deppression had settled upon me, so effective and deceptive was it that I didn't even see it, feel it, or recognize it until I cried out to God and He faithfully showed it to me. Upon seeing it, I was able to rebuke it, and upon rebuking I felt that it had left, however this feeling would be short lived.
Monday Morning I awoke with new and clear vision, I had a zeal to take on the world, a desire to return to my former joy, and so I did for at least a few hours. At 3:30 my mom came over delivering to me a not so happy twelve year old daughter whom she had rescued from school, you see mom has volunteered to take the girls to and from school for me on Mondays just to give a me a much needed break. Anyhow Michalela had a very bad day, first a girl pulled Michaela's pants down to her knees as she walked up the hill from the playground! Then as she topped the hill she finds that her backpack complete with all of her schoolwork and personal belongings was resting the boys restroom! No I am not making this up! Apparently we have some children who think it is no big deal to torment a fellow classmate who's mother is at home possibly dying of cancer! Then as if this were not enough for our family to deal with I go out to mow the lawn and have an attack from my Meniere's disease, better known as Vertigo on steroids. The result is loss of bodily function, violent vomiting, cold sweats, weakness and often hospitalization, the last time was for three days. There is no warning at all and these things are rough, this one, you guessed it the second worse I have ever had, took me out! Thank you Mom and Paul for coming over and sitting with me and the fam while the meds took over! yes my joy from the oppression was rather short lived. However let it be known it will be a cold day in H_ _ _ _ before I let the enemy get the best of me, or my family! Yes he used childish acts to get to my daughter and yes he disrupted our day and night, and yes he may even get a few more licks in, but if there is one thing I know it is this; "My God is in control!" The day of judgement for the enemy of our souls is in my opinion not far away, but nonetheless no matter how far away it is, he will suffer for eternity, and we will suffer only but for a while. And no matter how many fights he may win, or distractions he may throw our way he cannot change the future, and he cannot change our truths, he has lost, Christ has won the battle and since we are His we too have claim to victory, yahooo!
Dawn has been on her new chemo for seven days and so far her side effects have been very minimal, praise be to God! She is of course as beautiful as ever, and the wisdom continues to pass through her lips. Her energy level is waining some and for now we must limit any visits to strictly one hour once or twice a week, any more than that is too hard for her to recover from. Yes Dawn is very sick, and yes if she could she would love to see everyone, however the reality is she just cannot do so and still have quality time with her family. Please pray for our entire family, days like Monday truly do cause us great pain and suffering and while Dawn and I are able to handle it we cannot handle seeing our children hurting and scared. Strike up the band, pass the word, the enemy has gotten away with too much for too long it is time to send him packing let's pray!
Bless you all
Gene