Chemo delayed once again!

If ever there were a situation that the world would call a comedy of errors I do believe that Dawn and I have found ourselves in the midst of it. It has been since November 20th that we first discovered that Dawn had tumors on her liver and that Cancer (which has now been confirmed) was suspected, at todays writing this began thirty days ago and counting. From the very moment of the preliminary diagnosis there has been one delay after another, from the biopsy, to meeting with the specialists, and now the Chemotherapy. We find all of this extremely challenging when seemingly every doctor and specialist has told us we need to take a very aggressive approach as this is a very agressive and destructive form of cancer. Based upon the diagnosis, and the seemingly lackluster and truly unprofessional response the acceptable human response would be one of anger, frustration, and possibly even retaliation, and few people would blame us for responding in such a manor,(and yes we have had our moments). As a matter of fact I am equaly convinced that we would find fewer people agreeing with our response than we would those disagreeing with our response, so just exactly how are we responding you ask? First and foremost we pray, individualy and together we seek the Lord for how He would have us approach this situation, and every delay. Secondly we share the results of what we have heard, we share our fears, our tears, our dissapointments, and our victories, and then we decide what our next step will be. You will notice that our options do not include calling a relative and asking thier opinion, nor is it seeking the opinions of friends, or the Church, or any other individual. Are we wrong, are we not doing everything we can, should we push harder, make more noise, seek other opinions, or take any one of the seemingly endless number of options available to us? Yes these are all questions that Dawn and I ask each other almost daily, you see there is little else on our mind right now, how could there be, every day we face the obvious symptoms of this disease and the effects it is having on Dawn, myself, the rest of our family, and countless friends. So what is the answer? Actually the answer is quite simple, one we made some thirty years ago, one that does not wait upon the opinions of friends, the approval of the Church, or the feelings of our family, that decision was one to trust, believe in, and surrender to the will of God! I know I sound like a broken record but isn't that exactly how it should be? I mean if Dawn and I believe as we we do that our God is in complete control of every situation, and the outcome of everything in our life isn't that how we should walk though this? Now I know that some would say that we are weak and allowing folks to take advantage of us, however the truth is quite the contrary, you see no one even if they want to can take advantage of God without Him in His time setting things straight. No we are not Gods ourselves, but we are His children whom He has promised to care for and protect, and the Bible does not say that God helps those who help themselves, it does however say the following : "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths" Proverbs 3:5-6 The bible also says that He will "never leave nor forsake you" Heb 13:5, in addition Romans 8 tells us that "nothing can separate us from the love of God". Yes I could go on and on but for what cause, the truth is you either believe or you don't, if you don't and you won't no amount of sharing will change your heart, and for that I am sorry, sorry that you will be missing out on the hope, faith, and trust that Dawn and I have, the peace that passes all understanding, because you see that is what comes with faith. Again are we sticking our heads in the sand and hoping this goes away, absolutely not, however we do refuse to allow this to control our lives, plans have been made and we have had all of the difficult disscusions, and yes we are ready to face whatever comes our way, even delays in chemotherapy, after all we have been asking the Lord to delay the Chemo if He did not want Dawn to go through it, could it be that this too is another answered prayer?

PS
On Wednesday morning we will be meeting once again with our cancer doctor to discuss what is going on, apparently the insurance companies have not ben reimbursing for the chemo drugs in a timely manner and the canver center cannot purchase them without payments being made, yeah wierd.